Leave Michael Vick alone!!!

Today on Twitter someone posted something about Michael Vick being one of the most hated players in NFL. That statement really upset me. Yes what Michael Vick did in the past was wrong. He paid for it so why are people still trying to punish him? People can hate all they want but that brother is still getting paid more than any of those haters. We all make mistakes. We all deserve forgiveness. Michael Vick is already punishing himself as it is. Give the man a break. I'm sure he learnt from his mistakes. I'm sure at some point in life we have all made mistakes were we needed someone to forgive us and give us another chance. People forget that these celebrities are also human beings. They have feelings. Deal with your own lives first before you start concentrating on what somebody else is doing or what they did. None of us have the right to judge. We are all sinners and some of you have done worse that Michael Vick.

See you later Westlife!!!

Growing up I was such a big WestLife fan. Words can not describe how much I love them even though I have stopped listening to their music. I remember when I used to seat down and watch the Coast to Coast tour video wishing I was one of the people in the audience. My favourite song by Westlife is "You make me feel" from the album Coast to Coast. I don't know why that song never made it as a single. 

What makes Westlife so special to me is that I discovered their music on my own without my brothers help. Growing up l adored my brothers. They could never do wrong in my world. So, I loved all the music they loved. 

I don't know why I stopped listening to their music. I still listen to their old music but I have just never been interested in their new music. Westlife reminds when I was growing up and it makes me miss the good ole days.

It makes me sad to hear that after 14 years together my favourite boy band is splitting up. They will be having a good bye tour next year and believe me I will be there. It has always been my dream to see them live in concert and I'm going to make it happen. I hope they do a reunion in a couple of years. I'm a Westlife fan for life. Their music will live in forever.

Peace & Love 

Yolanda 

Wake me up when September ends!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh wow I can't believe September is gone already. It was such a hectic but fun month for me. It feels good being back to my normal everyday life after 6 weeks of rest in Texas visiting my family. I have to admit though, I miss the Texan heat. Most importantly l miss my family. 

Since l have been back home I have been going out of town with the Royal Navy every weekend so, it felt weird being home this weekend not doing anything or feeling exhausted. I also got the chance to go back to HMS Raleigh since l passed out from phase 1 of military basic training. They assigned me the same bed I was sleeping on while l was doing my military basic training. It felt weird being back there because this time l was only there for a weekend with different people and not in training. The only thing that sucked was that we still had to march every where because we were a big group and you don't just walk scratching your head on a military establishment. Discipline!!! Besides that I absolutely loved every minute even when l hurt my leg. 

This month is going to be less hectic because l don't have any out of town trips planned. I love travelling and I'm itching to pack my bags and go some place exciting. I'm going to be training a lot harder because l have the Birmingham Half marathon coming up. I'm so excited to do it because l have never done one before and running is therapy to me. 

My mother's birthday is also coming up and it's a big one I'm still thinking of what to get her. Any ideas??????

Yolanda

Not good for u!!!

You ever found yourself wanting something you can not have but you still want it nevertheless?
Or maybe you can have it but, you know it's not good for you? Deep down in your heart you know you're going to get hurt but you still can't help yourself but want it. It's not like they are no better offers on the table but still you want what is not good for you. It's a fight between good versus evil. What do you do then? Pray you stop wanting it! Ignore it! Go for it and see what happens! Hmmmm this thing called life is hella interesting. I wish I had a switch button that way life wouldn't be so complicated. In my opinion life is not complicated, it's the people who complicate it. I'm sure if we had all the answers life would be boring.

Peace & Love

Yolanda

Control freak

I have realised that l over think things. Sometimes, I don't know how to let things flaw. I have to plan every detail. I never do anything spontaneously. I plan what I'm going to wear in advance. I always make plans in advance. I never wake up and say today I'm going there. Nope, if l don't plan it ahead l start panicking. I realise that in life things don't always go to plan but still that does not stop me from planning ahead. I'm a control freak. I don't like not being in control. When I'm not in control of things l feel vulnerable. I don't like feeling vulnerable. I don't like people to see me at my worst. If l let my emotions show I'm leaving myself open to hurt and l can not let that happen. I don't like disappointment therefore l never expect anything from anyone. I know I'm not perfect and l will never be so, l make it up by trying to keep my surroundings perfect. Let me explain when l say keeping my surroundings perfect. I'm what you call a clean freak. Everything has to be immaculate and in place most times. Yes that sounds a little ocd ok not just a little. However, lately l have been working on it. I now know it's ok to cry here and there. I still can not cry in front of people. I feel as if I'm giving them the satisfaction. I'm learning to not plan out every little detail in my life. It's ok to go with the flaw sometimes. If l get hurt in the process oh well that's life. What is life when you are always trying to be safe? Take a risk!!! However, I don't think l will stop being a clean freak. I'm still a work in progress and everyday l take a step towards becoming a better me.

Peace & love

Yolanda

Summer 11

I can not believe that my summer holiday is almost over. What a crazy but fun this summer has been for me!!! I started my summer with 2 weeks of Military Basic Training to finish my phase 1 training in the Royal Navy Reserves. That was the most challenging thing I have ever done in my life. Training was very hard but fun for me. During training I often questioned myself as to what the hell I was doing there. I'm definitely not cut for the military but by the grace of God I made it through and I'm looking forward to finishing the rest of my training. I will keep you posted.

A day after I returned home from military basic training I flew to Texas for the rest of my summer holiday. I love Texas but it's crazy hot out here. No matter how many times I have been here I'm still not used to the heat. I was actually pissed off when we didn't beat the record after 40 something days of triple digit heat. Weird.

 I have really enjoyed spending time with my family here. This summer has been extra special for me because I got the chance to really bond with my sisters. We didn't grow up together therefore, our interaction with one another has been limited. However, I think this time round when I go back to England we will stay in touch. My sisters really made my summer something to remember. I now consider them my friends. I now consider them my friends. They got to really know me and I the same. I think at first they were a little freaked out by me. My sisters are really conservative and I'm this crazy girl who says whatever comes to mind even if it's inappropriate. However, they have come to love and accept me for who I am. I will definitely miss them when I go back to England. I was supposed to be back in the UK this past weekend but due to the hurricane a lot of flights were cancelled so hopefully I get to fly back sometime this week. 

Another person that really made my summer is my baby brother who is 5. He is such an amazing little boy. Out of everybody in this house he is the one making me feel guilty about going back to England but that's life lol. 

The thought of going back to school is kind of making me sick to my stomach. I don't think I'm ready to go back to my crazy schedule. oh well that's life.

Peace & Love

Yolanda

A little something about me!!

It's either you love or hate me. No inbetween with me.Normal gets you no where. I'm defo not normal. I don't conform to society. I am my own person. I say what's on my mind and half the time I don't think before l speak. People would like to hear me say "I wish l think before l speak" but truth of the matter is I don't. This is me & there is nothing I can do to change. My flaws are a part of me. I can not live a life were l constantly wish l was different. They are things about me that I don't like but I have come to accept and love them because no matter how hard I try they never change. This is who I am. I speak my mind maybe a little too much at times. I like my own company. Does it make me weird that once in a while l like going to the cinemas by myself. *confession* The whole going to the cinemas by myself started recently. I really wanted to watch Colombiana and everyone was busy so l went by myself. At first l felt weird but I got used to it and actually enjoyed it. I'm going to do it again.
Sometimes l say things people wouldn't say out loud. People always give me the side eye when l say something I shouldn't say out loud. I don't even get why people gasp when l say odd things because half the time they are thinking it anyways. This always leads to people having the wrong idea of me. Does it bother me that sometimes people don't get me?? No it does not. With a personality like mine it takes special people to accept me for the crazy person I am. It feels good to be in a place in my life where I am really comfortable in my own skin. I'm a special human being and I love being me. I'm still a work in progress therefore, everyday I'm taking a step to becoming a better me. So this is me take it or leave it.



Peace & Love

Yolanda xxx

Procrastination

has me down. I'm sure if you looked it up in the dictionary you will see my picture right there. I think l have undiagnosed ADD. My mind is always in over drive. I'm always thinking of things l should be doing but l always say l will do it later and never get round to doing it. I always start things but never finish them. It's a miracle I still have this blog and able to finish reading novels which is every week. Speaking of this blog I thank God l still have it. I wish l could update more but between procrastinating and not really having anything to blog about makes it impossible for me. I'm going to try and write down the things l want to do daily and try to complete it all. Maybe that will cure my procrastination. Somebody help!!!!!!!

Trying to figure it all out!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

 One minute l feel as if I'm going in the right direction and the next minute l feel as if I'm not doing enough with my life. I guess l spend so much time looking at things l want than things l already have. Often l fail to realise how blessed I am. I'm really thankful for everything God has blessed me with. However, sometimes l feel as if I'm wasting time doing things l have no business doing. For example I love writing and deep down l know I'm not a good writer and if you have been following this blog for a while you know that too, but still it does not stop me from trying. Why do l love things I'm not good at? I'm trying to figure out my talent. I wonder do l even have one. I often question myself what did God send me on this earth to do? I'm still trying to figure it all out. I can not help but feel like a lost puppy. 

Yolanda

Go shorty it's your birthday!!!!!!

We gonna party because it's my birthday. Yep that's right yal today is my birthday. (Only 30 mins left till my birthday is over lol) I had a good birthday. It was the best birthday I have ever had. We didn't do anything big but it was special. I feel very loved by everybody. My family and friends showed up for me today. I still love the whole cake and singing Happy birthday. Today was extra special because my brother who lives in Texas was on skype with me and everybody else singing me happy birthday. We are not done celebrating though. Saturday I'm going to have a little get together at my house. I can't wait.

By the way at what age will I stop loving birthdays?? 

Love 

Yollie